I dritten

I dont trust anyone but me, my own life ruined me like that.
I havent any trust in other people, they caused me too many disappointments.
I read what I wrote 7 years ago and Ive found out how much Ive changed during these years thanx to many unpleasant experiences I had. Once I was a sweet girl who could feel something for people around her, now Im wild like hell and I use to hide my emotions and feelings just to protect me from the evil of this world, if I prove something its completely wrong and it has just pain and restlessness for me, like a sin even if its a positive feeling so its better to turn my heart into stone every now and then.
Then everything I dream to realize someday its destined just to be a dream for all my life, if I really desire to do something Ill never do it cause destinys against me and its ready to put many obstacles between me and my wanted goal. So its unuseful to plan anything since its all impossible to realize (and its wiser to prevent possible future disappointments).
If it happens I prove a feeling for a person I block everything just repeating me "That persons not a business of your, it already belongs to someone else and so its no good you prove something for it" and Im fucking true everytime (distressing, huh?). Life for me its just dreaming something Ill never realize cause Im not the right one, looking for something Ill never find...forever and ever.
But naturally no one is interested in knowing how I feel, this blog has the record for being the least visited website in the net (woah, Im proud of it) and I could even write about the greatest advantages you have sticking a jalapeno in your own ass, maybe Ill talk of it in the next post.
Ill go on looking for something/one able to shake my uneasiness away (but itll be a long and hard quest destined not to be successful)

"Moonlight shining in the sky
nothing more can stop my flight
Take my hand again, fly with me
thousand million miles away"

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